it still hurts;

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I'm not sure whether u should blog bout this.

It is really hard for me to take this situation.

I'm not sure whether i should leave for their happiness or just stay and continue to be dumb.

I know i made a huge mistake or rather sin in my life.

I know. But nobody is giving me a chance to make things up.

Nobody is treating me nice under this roof.

They are all doing their own things and ignoring me.

I hate it when people asked, "who is at home?".

What do i answer?? Do i tell them the names of my family members that doesn't talk to me.

That doesnt even treat me like they used too??

How i wished i didnt make that mistakes.

I didn't blame them coz they are not wrong.

I am , and now they make me bear the consequences now.

All i have to do is bear with them,even if it takes all my lifetime.

Even when they talked to me without looking at me plus the tone of hatred.

Even when we act like strangers when we bump in the lift.

Even when they don't offer their food like they always do.

Even if i get back home with no one to talk to except CT and Mr Smoochy.

I have to endure this challenge, no matter what.

I jus need the strength, courage and patience.

*Breathes in,breathes out...*

Love-Life wise..
I'm having second thoughts...
I don't know why..
Mayb due to the changes of the surrounding

And us....