 *Nur' Ain Madzlan *often misunderstood *frequent mood swings *frequent anxiety attacks *addicted to green apples mail/msn: flubbery_blue@hotmail.com |
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Those scenes have been running through my mind everyday. Everyday. Scenes of you, me and that orange comforter of yours.It was so sweet.Really sweet.How i wished we could snuggle up together all the time.(Stop your imaginations!!!!!)Life has been very very "beautiful".I was downed with a stomuch flu and a sore throat till now.When to a private doctor,spending 28 bucks for stress pills, digestions pills and a cough syrup which is now left is only an empty bottle on the kitchen table.As for those pills, they are still in my bag wherever i go. SO, now, no more stress.No more tension.No more "lembik" me. I've gotta be strong.I've gotta to let go of the past.I'm moving on. random random random I'm not living life on my own but on other person rules and comments, another words, i live my life on what people say.You can't do this my love, you can't do that sweetheart, you can't be friends with that type of person my child, you can't talk to that guy dear, you can't spend your money on this, you can't wear like that, you look horrible today, why are you acting like a boy, you change so much lately, and loooooooaaads moore..All this little sayings and comments make me feel bad-ugly-horrible-just-like-norbit-the-movie.Really.i need smn to make me feel confident of myself.I waana be pretty like those near to me. Its deteriotating.seriously random random random School.How's school? Its getting so much fun.But not that fun with a long schedules and assignments by assignments coming up.Its fun cause the holidays are just around the corner.!!! yeh!! but still i'll still miss my friends and not getting to meet my Mr Cheekyboy everyday. I''ll miss those freaks like Ayuni aka "papajahat" girl, Wawan aka "tanyejawabsendiri" guy, Akbar aka "partner-in-crime" ,Jackson aka "my-admire", and of course Mr Kassreal Alfi!!. Not forgetting my first love in life, my Mr Cheekyboy-Roydzuan. I need a work to fill in my time.Lobang anyone??!!!! To my dear friend Mr_______, apologised for that last minute cancellation of our plans.I'm really sory.Mayb next time k. I apologised. (Gelek dangdut)... Labels: i still think of you |