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Sunday, September 17, 2006
I'm alone...ALONE in a situation wer i need smn to be here wif me..Giving me the strength to move on..but NOONE... NOONE is here standing behind me...No job..no money...no nothing..NOTHING!!!...i have a boifren who is bz...Only god noes whether he thinks of me...Haiizz...I'm not strong enough anymore like i used too....Let me jus put myself back into pieces...I need no help...ALL my dreams , my imaginations where i create to make them come true..ALL disappear..Jus like tat...Why must wen i realli put my life into stg,smn must come and destroy it...and it all happens wen i'm alone...Mayb its fated for me to live life alone..without love, courage and smiles...Everything sweet tat i used to own,felt like its jus for the time being...Like they say, nothing last forever...I'm embarrased..EMBARRASED wif everyone including Him...I'm such a loser..Sometimes, theres a point of time wer i realli felt like ending tis life...But thinking back, ending tis life NOW, doesn't mean tat i will end my problems in the world after...Down, alone,missing,confused...thats the state i am in now...I dunnoe whether i can face my reality now...I really am not strong anymore...Aku dh tk kuat...Semangat aku hilang tanpa bayangan...Tiada seseorg pun yg pedulikan aku skarang...Mungkin memand sudah jad kenyataan untuk aku tidak merasai nikmat dunia...Aku terlalu pentingkan diri sendiri...Aku selalu hidup dng senang lenang...tanpa memikirkan org lain...Kini mungkin Dia ingin mengingatiku bahawa aku telah hidup dng terlaaaaaluu senang...Aku mengambil lewa org disekekiling,kesenangan yg sedia ade...Kini aku seorg diri menghadapi cabaran yg diberi...Aku tidak pasti jika aku dapat mengharunginya dgn tabah SENDIRI.....