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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Yesterday was the end of my starbucks training wif batch #409..Soo gonna mizz them..haiiz..
I still got one Art of Espresso class to attend wif Yan..Looking forward for it...
a conversation wif Kay..

Kay: first time i tot u chinese leh..
me:nolah..i malay lah..
Kay:u look like chinese..
Me:u are the 485749583 who said tat..
Kay:waah u count ah??!
me:nolah...haha

a conversation wif Aaron...
aaron: u chinese ar?
me:nolah..
aaron:den malay??? (wif the shocking face)
me:yahlah..
aaron:y u so fair wan??
me:hahaha..dunnoe..u are the 48968485038 ppl who said tat...
a conversation wif zalina

zalina:u malay ke chinese??
me:malaylah..
zalina:i tot u chinese seeh..
me..haha..

the moral of the story..dun be fair if u have "sepet" eyes...

"i rase lain ah..tk tau nape"...
"hati i mcm memanggil name dea sejak2 nie"
"i tk tau nape i bodoh, i gi merayu kt "dea" nk dea alik.."
"afiq mcm "dea"..I mcm Seha"...

these are the statements tat hurt me deep inside...tat is y i cried my heart out on ur shoulders, wen i was in ur arms..Something tat i 've expected and afraid of has happen...i was goona turn crazie...but i kept reminding myself tat feelings can't be force..it kept repeating in my head like a player everytime i am alone....i was ready to end everything without thinking of the risk i'm taking towards myself..."the old me" is calling...i was ready to live life alone again for the god-noes-how-many-time...but i've promise to myself not to repeat those mistakes again just becoz of smn or stg tat has jus happen..i'm goona be strong and go tru everything..Atlast everything turn out to be fine..I jus wan you to be honest wif urself ,Me and our relationship...Its not gonna do any good if u kept on lying 2wards these 3 ....If u ever change ur mind after the decision is being made yestrday, go ahead..Coz i sedar i ade kelemahan dan kekurangan dlm diri nie..I dun wan ur love for me to be a force as u pity me or watever... Now tat we are still 2gether, i'm thankfull to have u still in my life..Watever tat has happen, jus throw it far away and let it drift wif the waves...I still love u like i always do my-crumtious-blueberry-candy aka babybotak...muuuacks!!!