 *Nur' Ain Madzlan *often misunderstood *frequent mood swings *frequent anxiety attacks *addicted to green apples mail/msn: flubbery_blue@hotmail.com |
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
ItS Ayah bdae 2dae!!! happIe bdae ayah!!! but its sad tat he's nOt heRe wif us to celeBrate it 2getheR...I wish him tis mOrning via sms...i want him to nOe tat i remembEr his bdae...I just want him to nOe tat i will alwayS lOve him eventhOugh i didn't shOw it or expRess it to him...Yesterday was a disasteR!!! I was being scOlded by mum fOr cOming back hOme late...I reached hOme at 12.40am frOm my all time fav place De Esplanade..I just can't understand why can't she give me sOme spaCe to bReathe?? atleaSt she shOuld leaRnt to give and taKe..She was liKe scReaming her lungs out on the fOn asKing me to cOme back hOme...i just hang up..can't be bOther..dEn it was Dad whO called me...He didn't shOut..He didn't scOld...He didn't eVen say anything tat huRts me... He just told me to get bacK hOme faSt...At tat pOint, i feel like Mums aRe such a bOther....haiizz..wen i gOt baCk she was liKe shOuting at me threatening me..I just can't be bOther wif mums stuff..U noe mums..They can only nOe hOw to threaten but actualli they just can't beaR to do it...haha..afTer diNNer, i sAt in my room thinking bOut wat has just happened...I wen out to said sori to heR...i cannOt believe tat i have the guts to say soo..She was liKe nodding her head as i kissed her hands...I nOe she's dissapointed and sad in me but she just dun understand me as a teenager whO wants sOme spaCe....Haiizz...bUt wat's impOrtant is tat i've said my sories and felt better but i just cannot accept tat she scReamed at me...aRRRggggh!!!! i wOnder if shE remembErs Dad's bdae 2dae...always on the fOn talking bOut my late uncle...haiizz...can't be bOthered wif such huhu haha stuffs...anyway... HAPPIE BIRTHDAY AYAH!! lOoOvE yOOOU sooo muccch!!!..*huggsss*!!! *muacccksss*!!!! P.S: missinG yOOu soo muCh deaR.. |