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Thursday, July 02, 2009
Adam Lambert- Mad World (thanks to cousin Feeza's blog)
Those lyrics plays like a recorder in my head.
Its top in my playlist for now.

I just cannot stand the tiredness anymore.
I am just so tired and exhausted.
I dont feel like working.
But i can't afford to let those sales go by like that.
I have so any plans after Hari raya and i need loaads of Ka-chings..
I'm saving up for a short trip overseas and planning for my big 21st.
I want everybody to party even nenekakujugak.


Friday, June 12, 2009
Why? I dont need all this. It just makes my revenge grow stronger. I dont know to who i wanna throw it all out. Isnt their words hurtful enuff in the past. Who izzit this time round? Don't make me your anger victim. Come on. Just face me and settle your scores with me. Don't take the simple way out. Are you out there to kill me.? I've suffered enuff. What else do i owe? What?
I wanna run away..From everything. Everyone cannot be trusted. Even myself. I think i'm too good for everyone. Too damned good.. You are no match for me and you r the cheap one here..F*** whoever you want..i dont even care. Just don't forget, there's always payback time for you baby..


Tuesday, June 09, 2009
It came back. I can't seems to run away from them. It might sounds ridiculous. I hate to think bout it again. I think i'm crazy. I have this fire thats burning down deep. They humiliate me. They hurt me with words in the net. All i can do at that point of time is cry. I thought i could feel better but it hurts me more. Mak came to me, and all i did was to cry on her lap. Those words are harsh. The pain has turn into revenge. To an extend I wanted to kill a child. And I still do now. I feel like meeting them up and throw all my past anger and suferings. Those words keeping running tru like a film strip in my head. Her face, another her face, her voice.
I think this revenge is becoming worse.
I feel like crying.. and i am....

Bless me..